At last.

A topic I think both Kelly and I can mutually discuss. A topic that's actually very relevant in both our lives.

BOYS.

Not even men, no. I don't think any I've been around can be given that honor yet. I'm hoping that they might someday. I think both Kelly and I are in romantic places adequately labeled "meh." Not that there's nothing going on, but just-meh! Maybe that's not true, but it's frustrated me to the point of exhaustion, so the only way to respond is "meh."

So. Being free of my long relationship did something really good for me. Don't know exactly what, but I was always in such a happy place! Everything was awesome! Now, a mere three months, one tipsy perception, many hormones, lots of indecision, and multitudes of hypocrisy later, I'm fighting to find happiness in the places I did before. When I was newly single, it was incredibly easy to think simply. As in, if you love someone-be together; if you know (even deep down) that you don't-don't be together. I'm not going to throw that away, because it is a core truth that you can't forget. But in my situation, I'm attracted to a person who I love talking to, but whose entire being I am completely repelled by. Ultimately, I had to come to my senses and say ATTRACTION IS NOT ENOUGH. But it doesn't mean it left matters that simple. Especially since this happens to be a very proud and determined person.

But it's okay because I'm darn-tootin more stubborn than he is. And my course of action is easy-no no no.

I hope Kelly will explain her situation so I can comment on it next time. I feel like introducing it for her would be a bad idea, as much as I would like to talk about it now.

Postscript: No worries about finding simple pleasures. The grass is still green, Christmas is still coming, and horrible repugnant bitch is still an AWESOME phrase.